Dying for a hug

 

Ever since childhood, I have been a person who loves close contact. I needed to be loved, but sadly that was something that I longed for, but never received as a child, then as a young adult.

Now nearly 70 years old, I have been diagnosed with depression, post traumatic stress disorder, panic disorder and fibromyalgia, to which there is a link with childhood abuse. 

Like trying to lose weight after taking medications for hyothyroidism, my current happy marriage and constant hugs and demonstrative affection, has not been able to erradicate the damage that was done in my childhood.

Open affection was something denied to me until I left my abusive husband after 25 years of hell and met Chris. During the 4 years between leaving my ex husband and meeting and marrying Chris, I felt so very alone.

I was never alone, not even in the womb, and being solo was strange and difficult for me. I was enveloped by a loneliness that draped itself around my shoulders like a wet soggy cloak of despair.

The only physical contact I had was at church, where we passed the peace, hugged our friends and received a chaste kiss on the cheek. I lived for that brief time every week.

I have read of an experiment that denied newborns affection, and each of the babies died. Perhaps this lack of affection was something that effected adults too. I know it was a big part in my becoming pregnant at 16, taken in by a man who told me he loved me. He started his abuse as soon as the ink dried on the marriage certificate and still continued (long distance) even after the ink dried on the divorce papers.

It is a blessing that Chris knows all my past and understands me, for even today I cannot bear to be outside at night. This is due to the fact that we often had to vacate our warm beds in the early hours of the morning with Dad chasing us in a drunken state, throwing beer bottles at us as we fled. Once it gets night, I feel anxious if I am not home and settled.

I am talking to you about this not for pity but a warning that hugs, kisses, cuddles, affectionate voices and other demonstrations of love is critical for a child's development. To give a child a happy childhood peppered with demonstrations of love and oodles of hugs is the best thing you can give them- more important than expensive toys.

During this enforced staying at home, let's make an effort to be demonstrative in our affections. Let's hug our children often, hold hands with our husband and nurture the need for touch and feeling loved.

"But what if my husband is not the affectionate sort?" you ask. Love him anyway, even if he is surprised by it. It will benefit not only your marriage, but your children. And who knows, you might even find that underneath the hesitation to show affection, he is starved for it, and is dying for a hug.

© Glenys Robyn Hicks

Titus 2:4-5 “That they may teach the young women to be sober, to love their husbands, to love their children. To be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God be not blasphemed.”

10 comments:

  1. Oh, I am so sorry that you had to experience such traumatic events. No child (or adult!) should have to go through that. Thanks for the reminder to give away our hugs and affection freely (when we can). We do all need it. I look forward to when we can all hug each other again.

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  2. Yes, we can't hug loved ones as readily now with Covid. Not surprising that there's a lot of depression around now. We were created to be social. Thanks for taking tea with me today, Lisa!

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  3. My pastor reminds us every week not to hug or handshake. He maintains that keeping our distance "is a ministry to others" during this time. Well, hugging is a ministry to me (and others like me). I am missing the connection that comes with hugging my fellow sisters in Christ.

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    1. I agree, hugging is a ministry. It is so important to those who are alone and who are dying for a hug. I love your blog, Patti. Thanks for sharing a cuppa with me today!

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  4. Glenys, I am so sorry for all you have had to go through and grateful our God brought you Chris. Thank you for reminding us all to hug those right within our own home. May their hug tank be full so that when we are released back into the world, we have much to give out. {{ }}

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    1. Thank you for having a cuppa with me today, Joanne!

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  5. So sorry for your lack of affectiona and abusive first marriage. It shows how much the Lord created us for affection and touch. When you look at the ministry of Jesus, He welcomed the children, touched people who needed healing and conversed with people of all ages and walks of life.

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    1. Yes, we all need that touch as much as a healing. Thanks for taking tea with me today, Karen!

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Thank you for visiting with me today. I love to hear from you. I may not always be able to reply right away, but I will respond to every comment you leave. Blessings and comfort, Glenys