Coping with change and disappointment


As you know, we live in a fifth wheeler RV  We have been on the road for three months. Having sold or given away most of our stuff, we have very little left. But it didn't matter as this RV had most things we needed. It was a dream come true.

The dream is coming to an end. My body can't cope with RV life. All my ailments are exacerbated by living in the fifth wheel. I have torn my meniscus in my left knee and I can no longer manage to get up the seven steps and the three up into our bedroom and ensuite. I am almost housebound.

Because the bed is difficult to get in and out of, I need to pull myself up and my shoulder and neck muscles vie in hot contest of being the sorest. As a result, my polymyalgia rheumatica is back and bad.

I have to slide down the wall to help take pressure off my sore knee and this has played havoc with my spinal problems and after getting up the main steps, I suffer angina really badly.

My fatigue is so bad and my fibromyalgia is in a flare. The stress of finding a new house and forcing myself to use the steps in order to do that is causing me to go into a depression.

There's no way round it: no mobility aids to overcome the problem and we will have to sell the fiver. It is a very disappointing turn of events.

I had prayed that I would be making the right choice in buying the fiver and GMC tow vehicle and in how I used my inheritance my mother left me last year. I felt sure this was the way to go but three months into our venture, it is apparent that for me, it is not a lifestyle I can maintain.

In a Christian's life, there is nothing that God hasn't already seen, and in saying that, I must confess that I believe everything is for a purpose. Whatever is in the future is part of God's plan for my life.

In feeling the disappointment, I must remind myself of this. I look forward to looking over this chapter in my life's book and seeing God's purpose for this. God is good. All the time.

© Glenys Robyn Hicks


He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from. Ecclesiastes 3:11

4 comments:

  1. so sorry to hear of your disappointment. At least you gave it a good try though. I hope you find something that suits you soon and am able to sell your 5th wheeler quickly too. Where are you hoping to settle. good luck and I hope you keep writing . I enjoy your blog. xx Ann

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    1. Thank you Ann. We are looking to rent in a country area called Gippsland. I hope we can sell our 5th wheeler soon but I am not too sure with Christmas coming that we will. I will be writing still. Thanks for sharing a cuppa with me today.

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  2. Living in the Wilderness of illness is difficult. I, to have fibro. And also RA and arthritis. It's difficult at times.

    I agree that if you record these difficult days you will one day look back and see the rhyme and reason.
    May God bless you.

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    1. I am sorry you are suffering so. Thanks for sharing a cuppa with me today Mandy.

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Thank you for visiting with me today. I love to hear from you. I may not always be able to reply right away, but I will respond to every comment you leave. Blessings and comfort, Glenys

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