So your parents weren't as loving as you wanted? Your husband not as demonstrative in his love as you would like?
So you decided you won't love them now? and so, you will be doomed to sadness...
Love covers a multitude of sins. Love. Grow. Forgive. Let the buck stop with you. Give that love you longed for to others. Be the love.
© Glenys Robyn Hicks
Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins- 1 Peter 4:8
I owe myself an apology.
For all the times I promised to forgive myself, only to bring it up again later.
For clipping the wings of my own dreams before they even had a chance to take flight.For thinking so little of myself at the very moments I should have been standing up for myself.
For the lies I swallowed while starving for truth.
For believing that all the glass I walked on as a child was ever my fault.
For withholding from myself the same grace and second chances I so freely give others.For allowing the world to convince me that my heart was both too much and not enough.
For all the days wasted pretending to be someone I hoped you would accept.
For not living my life more on my own terms, simply because I was afraid of making a mistake.
For punishing myself for far too long.
For believing love was bloody and painful, and that I didn’t deserve better.
For every time I looked in the mirror and hated who I saw.
I could sit here listing every reason and way I was wronged by others, but maybe more than anything, I owe myself an apology for not valuing this one, beautifully precious life of mine enough to know I’m worthy of greatness, the very best of everything.
And for that, I am sorry. Author unknown
Is your figurative boat taking in water? Have the rations nearly been depleted and the water low? A storm is coming and it looks like your boat is going to sink...
If you want to become a Christian, all you have to do is have a change of mind and turn around from doing things your way and going His Way!
Today is the Day of Salvation. Make your choice today and live forever!
Come aboard the good ship "Salvation" which will never ever sink. You'll be eternally glad you did!
When I was working in an office about 20 years ago, we would all take our lunch together in the tea room. We ate and chatted and sometimes one particular very self opiniated woman would preside over our talks.
She was very proud of her son who had graduated as a pharmacist and who had his own pharmacy. We saw no harm in that: we would have been proud of his achievements if he was our own son. But one day, she overstepped the mark and upset quite a few women at the table. Myself included.
One of the conversations centred around drug addicts and she declared them all to be a waste of space and definitely would be better off overdosing and dying and getting it over with.
At the time I was a mother of two drug addicted sons who I love dearly and pray for daily with the gut wrenching and desperate prayers that only a mother prays- I took exception to that.
With my stomach turning ill, I picked up my sandwich and took my cup of tea out of the tea room and ate and drank it in my car. She really was too much. I wanted my sons to be delivered and live.
From that day on, I avoided eating my lunch in the tearoom, especially if she was there, but one day I was asked by my boss to make him a coffee, and one of my former lunchtime companions was there.
She asked me directly why I never ate with the women anymore and I told her the truth. I told her that so and so was so hurtful in the things she says and so prideful of her son that she had no consideration that there may be mothers there with prodigal and wayward children who were also drug addicted.
To my surprise, she shared that she too was no longer taking her lunchbreak with so and so because she too had a drug addicted son and it was just too painful to consider that he was better off overdosing.
I said that I was praying for my sons and that I live in fear that they will overdose and I cannot sit and listen to her without feeling sick to the stomach.
She agreed and said that was why she too took her lunchbreak in her car away from her as well. We both agreed that one had to be feeling strong to listen to her raving.
One who doesn't have wayward or prodigal children like so and so had, can not imagine the constant fear when the phone rings that it will be news that her child has indeed overdosed. It gnaws at a mother's heart constantly.
As a Christian, all life is precious and all drug addicts have been enticed by carnal desires and instant gratification and this is something that is very hard to break from. Even with the LORD. Such is the hold from drugs that many have succumbed to their addiction praying for deliverence. And they are saved. They are, because Jesus died for our past, present and future sin. And addiction is sin.
There is hope in Christ and today one of my sons has broken from addiction and can testify that God heard my prayers. I continue to pray for the other who battles with it even while loving the LORD.
To tell me that either of these sons or even your son or daughter who battles drug or alcohol addictions is better off dead is evil. It limits God's ability to heal and deliver us and negates His Blood, and sees only successful humans as worthy of that. None of us are worthy but are sinners saved by Grace.
Nothing has changed my mind about her and people like her: if I turned back the clock, I would still sit alone.
For if we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. Therefore, whether we live or die, we are the Lord’s. Romans 14:8
No matter how badly you mess up or how hurt you are. No matter how confused or how sick you are- when you give your broken life to God.
He will help. heal. guide. love. forgive. restore. honour. love. and give you a reason to be glad that you are alive and His Child.
We have had a lot of chaos in our lives with Covid and world events. Being home has meant a lot of time to think. Sometimes this can be good but other times it can lead to depression.
Lately I have had too much time to think and it had given rise to depression at times. Often it lead to having the evil one throw darts at me, often in reminding me of sins and mistakes of the past.
Things have been better lately. Once I realised that the darts were coming from the evil one, I was able to take action.
We know that the Holy Spirit convicts us of sin with a way out: repentance and forgiveness. But the evil one condemns and accuses with no way to move forward out of the path of guilt and anxiety.
What the evil one was doing was trying to make me feel guilty and sad over past sins that have been forgiven and covered by the Blood of Jesus.
Remembering that Jesus has thrown those sins and mistakes into the Sea of Forgetfulness and remembers them no more, gave me the tool and the power to overcome these attacks.
An example of this would be me remembering some sin in my past that I would prefer to forget. The old anxiety pattern would start, making me miserable. So my conversation (vocal if I was alone) was to acknowledge with Satan that I was indeed guilty... but reminding him that Jesus has paid the price for that sin and has forgiven me!
Immediately, I would thank Jesus for His sacrifice and forgiveness and I would feel happy again. Satan cannot stand us to pray, praise and love Jesus!
What Satan meant for my harm became a reason to rejoice in my salvation!
Next time you are reminded of your past sin, remind him that you are redeemed and belong to Christ and start to praise Him. The devil will flee and what was meant for evil will be for your good.
© Glenys Robyn Hicks
But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive. Genesis 50:20
