Physically, I feel my full 67 years of age. Emotionally, I am mature and steady, and I am grateful for that after years of a stressful life culminating in PTSD.
Spiritually, I am at peace. It finally has clicked that God actually loves me. Until the last 23 years with Chris, I was made to feel unloveable, and I bought the Liar's lies...
Sure, I have regrets and have done some things in my life that I am most ashamed of, but in realising that God really loves me, I have fallen in love with Him. At last I feel forgiven and acceptable. Such peace!
I am happy in my own skin, able to forgive easily, and finding joy in everyday things. I feel like my outside man is breaking down, but my inner being is becoming more alive and well...
I don't worry so much about external things these days, but am concentrating on becoming a quiet and gentle soul. It sometimes takes a lot of work, but it's getting easier as I age.
I do find it hard when I am called an old lady: I don't see myself as old yet. Maybe I am by the world's standards. Those who call me an old lady are only in their early thirties: I probably thought those of my age were old at that age too...
Age is something we have to accept and we can and should be grateful for each and every year that we live: life is a gift.
Every time I comb my hair and see the grey, every wrinkle on my face, even my aching arms and neck, tell me that I am aging- but I am grateful to God for the years that have brought me to this place: the joy of being in the moment!
© Glenys Robyn Hicks
For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory; While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal. 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 Picture is of Helen Mirren
Beautiful post! I can relate to your feelings and thoughts as I am turning 63 this year! I look in the mirror and wonder how that happened! I am so glad that you know God loves you. He knows and loves each of us. He knows our names. I know that is true. Thank you for sharing this.
ReplyDeleteMy only regret is that it took me so long to know that God loves me. Really know it in my soul, not just head knowledge. It changed my life so much! thanks for sharing a cuppa with me, Helen!
DeleteI’m with you! At 62 I’m loving life and while I’m at ease with myself I’m also always growing and going beyond my comfort zone!
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I wish I was at ease with myself earlier in my life! Still, it's nice that it finally happened. I find as I age that I am more compassionate with people's goofs. I am definately more forgiving- or quick to forgive! Thanks for taking tea with me today, Cindy!
DeleteI'm so glad you have found yourself in a good place now. God loves us all, no matter what. You are far from an old lady. I am firmly of the belief that many of us act and appear about 10 years younger than what we used to perceive our age to be. Sixty is definitely the new fifty! And I love how our expression lines share our experience and our joys and sorrows too. Thank you for being a part of the Hearth and Soul Link Party.
ReplyDeleteI think you are right about sixty being the new fifty. I think better nutrition and healthcare have played a part in it, plus we don't have the back breaking chores to do like in days past, thanks to our labour saving appliances. Thanks for sharing a cuppa with me today, April.
ReplyDeleteI have been pondering a lot on quietness and gentleness....reading Puritan sermons on those topics. SO encouraging. Helps me let go of my outer man which is definitely wasting away! Kelly T.
ReplyDeleteIt is good to be still...
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