These last few weeks have been difficult to say the least and as I sit here this Wednesday morning my body's aching and my fingers are throbbing with arthritis.
I feel every day of my nearly 64 years and wonder how I am going to cope with another decade or so that I probably have left of life. My house is in need of a good tidy, and I can't do it.
There is washing to fold and put away, dishes to put in the dishwasher, cat kibbles to clear up from when the cats fought over the same dish of food. And their litter tray in the laundry needs emptying.
I forgot a word I was searching for in the doctor's yesterday and the air hung in pregnant silence. It was embarrassing, but my mind is suffering fibro brain fog and I don't look sick, so I didn't mention it.
I am so over being ill. Striving to be normal sucks. I am depressed. I admit it. And today, writing this, I feel like throwing in the towel. If you feel led, please pray for me. God feels far away today... I am in a hard place...
© Glenys Robyn Hicks
© Glenys Robyn Hicks
In my distress I called upon the LORD; to my God I cried for help. From his temple he heard my voice,and my cry to him reached his ears. Psalm 18:12
Glenys, I know how it feels when God seems far away. How I struggle with that! I do not suffer from chronic pain but have been doing lots of reading about suffering lately. There is a book called, Grace Grows Best in Winter, by Margaret Clarkson and another by her called Destined for Glory: The Meaning of Suffering. A reviewer said that it was very good for those suffering from chronic pain. I hope they can be a blessing to you. I have prayed for you and will continue to do so. Love from the States, Martha
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for taking the time to encourage me today, Martha. I will try to read those books. I have a lot of Sisters who I try to encourage due to chronic illness... I guess I have to have something in my bucket today, first.Thanks again, blessings. Glenys
DeleteGod is with you Glenys. He feels every pain, every lonely minute of every day.
ReplyDeleteHe is with you. Loving you and sitting by your side.
This is your Gethsemane. He will help you to bear it, and as you bear it day by day the Father God will stamp the image of His son on to your soul.
When you get to Heaven, open your eyes and feel the strength and vitality coursing through your resurrection body all this will feel like a distant dream. These are the shadowlands Glenys, one day we will wake up into the light and life of truth. The real life that goes on forever.
As you walk through the shadowlands our Lord walks with you, He will never leave you or forsake you.
And I will pray for you and look forward to the day we can meet one day there and run together through the fields of a redeemed Earth and worship our King together in the Temple.
God bless you, even as you are a blessing to others.
Sue xx
Thank you so much as well, Sue. You have encouraged me. I must say it will be a welcome time, to have no more pain. I will look for you when we are in those fields of which you speak. So much joy in the offering.. so much. Blessings, Glenys
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