As you probably know, I am trying to cope with heart problems, arthritis, fibromyalgia and back problems. That should be enough to cope with, but added to that, we are moving house tomorrow to become grey nomads and travel round Australia. But right now, I am totally exhausted!
Furthermore, as I packed stuff and cleaned the house, I was appalled at how dirty our home had become! In fact, I cried! I would be totally ashamed to sit at my kitchen table to share a cuppa with you with the state it has gotten in. As I scrubbed my stove top and cleaned my oven, it occurred to me that I had no right writing posts about homemaking when my home was so dirty! This realisation coupled with fatigue sent me in a downward spiral which the Evil One was only too happy to escort me to.
Seeking to refresh my lagging spirits, I listened to the Word on CD as I cleaned and I cried out to the LORD. Literally cried. Although I felt no physical refreshment, the Word ministered to my spirit. I felt amazingly and unconditionally loved and I can't say I heard the LORD, but I did receive a definite feeling of understanding and compassion in my spirit. This came as 'self-talk' but it was not from my self. You just know when God has spoken to your spirit. He always encourages you even when chastising, and even in chastisement, there is always a way out and a hope! This never comes from the Evil One!
I felt that I was being too hard on myself, given the circumstances of my ill health. I questioned if what I write is true, and it is. It is something that I aspire to, try to achieve and totally believe. The fact that I cannot achieve this at the moment is irrelevant. My heart and spirit are in the exhortations that I write. Therefore, I am not a hypocrite. You have got to believe me when I say that this ministered to me so much, that I felt the weight of false guilt just roll off my shoulders.
I am battling so many things right now. Including fear of the future, death, worsening health issues and pain. I do so desire you to uphold me in your prayers and not to think too badly of me as I confess these shortcomings to you.....
I am sorry that I have disappointed some of you with this confession..... sometimes things get on top of me! Thank you to those of you who are praying for me. Perhaps it was these prayers that have led me back from The Pit.
© Glenys Robyn Hicks
But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons. Hebrews 12:8
Glenys, My dear dear friend! I'm so glad the Lord spoke peace to your soul about this!! You have NOTHING to be ashamed of at all I love you and your Godd given ability to share with us your faith and God's love for all of us.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Mona. It is so true that the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak! There is so much I would love to do, but can't. Thanks for those encouraging words. Blessings and love, Glenys
DeleteSometimes we all get behind on things, well intentioned as we may be. Add to that your current circumstances, and I think it's totally understandable. I'm not sure if you're happy to take my word for it, since I just popped over from Esme's linkup thingy, so you don't know me. But it's my opinion based on stumbling across this post and reading it that your circumstances make the mess totally understandable. Don't let it get to you. The stress of the worrying would just be one more thing you'd have to deal with, and it sounds like you have enough on your plate right now.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to be responding so late. But thanks as always for sharing a cuppa with me, Victoria
DeleteI am not disappointed in the least..this is what our reality is. I promise you if I had to move and see all the grime and dirt in the kitchen plus years of not dusting elsewhere I am sure I would be upset. However, I know I simply can't do those things. I cannot hire help either. It's a settled acceptance. And we know we are leaving all this behind for Heaven anyway. HUGS HUGS Kelly
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to be responding so late. But thanks as always for sharing a cuppa with me, Kelly
DeleteThings get on top of people all the time. You are not alone and you have a lot on your plate. Ease up on yourself, know you help others when you are honest and keep on keeping on - that is inspirational in itself #StayClassyMama
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to be responding so late. But thanks as always for sharing a cuppa with me, Kate
DeleteMy apologies for forgetting this is on Blogspot! Of course I’ll be stopping by here to share experiences with our Lord and His promises in our lives.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to be responding so late. But thanks as always for sharing a cuppa with me, Phyllis!
DeleteMy Dear Precious One, Be gentle with yourself. My own fibromyalgia was worsened by the after effects of a chemotherapy drug that causes nerve damage. You are not a hypocrite. On my own blog, I write in the hopes of encouraging others, while at the time I myself may be dealing with pain and fear. This does not make us hypocrites! This makes us women of God, daughters of the most high King who are striving to share His love with others. You are His treasure! Hugs and blessings to you!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to be responding so late. But thanks as always for sharing a cuppa with me!
DeleteI had vertigo last year and couldn't even roll over in bed without vomiting. It was completely debillitating and I felt like such a burden on my family. I hope you feel better soon. Thanks for linking up with #stayclassymama
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to be responding so late. But thanks as always for sharing a cuppa with me, Laura! Vertigo is the pits! #stayclassymama
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